The Musings of Balance

by Thomas Rakowitz

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The culmination of years of work, this album is the cathartic solo release by Thomas Rakowitz. Ranging from hard rock, to metal, to ambient soundscapes, this album seeks to give insight to his mind while asking the listener what is inside of theirs. This is a personal record, and may feature content that may be deemed "unsettling" towards some listeners. It was important, however, to be as honest as possible.

So here it is, in its complete and flawed form: "The Musings of Balance"

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released March 16, 2016

Guitars, Bass, Vocals, Drum Programming, Producing, Mixing, Mastering/Post-Mixing: Thomas Rakowitz

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Thomas Rakowitz San Antonio, Texas

Thomas Rakowitz, hailing from Texas, is a songwriter and composer that creates aural pleasure for himself and others. While he generally stays in the hard rock and metal frame of mind, Thomas isn't afraid to bring his fretwork and talent to other genres and stylings. His pieces take cues from many influences, but each still has his signature mark on them. ... more

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Track Name: Intro - To These Beginnings
Instrumental
Track Name: Everything Is Gone
Verse 1:
Cracks in the mirror, Remind me
Of what I can be
This thing I hate is framed
In a lens of truth

Pre-chorus:
I don't know what I am
But I know you

You are the end of everything

Chorus:
I've gotta get away from you
(Can't get away, can't get away from me)
To change what I have become
(Slip into, slip into the void)
But you and I are one
(I am you, you are me)
And everything is gone

Verse 2:
Desperate scars on the wall
Now shown for all
Two stories, with one end
No way to amend

Chorus

Solo
Track Name: My Kind
Verse 1:
The ball and chain around myself
Around this idol of you
Sticks and stones will break them bones
These words will never suit you
The crown I wear upon my head
It cuts them scares that never fade
Royalty, made of lies
This is all that we made

Verse 2:
You said that I was your type
Of game that you could play
You said that I was your kind
Of bet you couldn't lose

Verse 2b:
King of, nothing
For a, season
Being, undone
For no, reason

Chorus
These darkened skies light up my eyes
The better to see behind your white lies
Hide the truth from your sight
Try to live the lie one more night

Bridge:
You are my kind of treason
The kind that's done without reason
You are my kind of torture
I wonder when it's over
You are my kind of mistake
The one I learn for my sake
You are my kind of grave
Shallow and I can't be saved

(And I can't be saved)

Bridge 2:
You are my kind of treason
You are my kind of torture
You are my kind of mistake
You are my kind of grave

You're not my kind of life
You're not my kind of end
You're not my source of pain
You're not my end of game

Chorus

(I don't know if I told you)

Bridge 3:
You're not my kind of treason
You're not my kind of torture
You're not my kind of mistake
You're not my kind of grave

You're not my kind of life
You're not my kind of end
You're not my kind of pain
You're not my end of game

(Good Riddance)
Track Name: The Illusion
Verse 1:
If the question's real
Is there an answer to reveal?
I push the pieces together
The vain edges weather

Chorus:
And I see mirages haunt, my life (my life)
The veiled illusion covers, my eyes (my eyes)
(It's the illusion of it all)

Verse 2:
The crooked lines are crossed
My signs point to lost
I've gotta search for a reason
For life's little treason (treason)

Chorus

(It's the illusion of hope, it's the illusion of faith, it's the illusion in all of us, IT'S THE ILLUSION OF IT ALL)

Chorus

Outro:
Still I see mirages haunt, my life (my life)
The veiled illusion covers, my eyes (my eyes)
Track Name: Frantic
Verse 1:
One, two, three, four
The ticking clock wants more
Gotta make, gotta make a quick escape
Gotta take the chance to break
Away from the mistake

What's the plan, is it our last stand?
Are we going to make demands?
Is the line drawn in bloody sand?
Set yourself, stay the course
Kill remorse, cut the source
With a force that fears all that you are

Pre-chorus 1:
Rise up, off your knees
Take it up, the legacy
Give up, being weak
Lose control of your:
Senses, Self, Pride, Restraint
Vanity, Sanity, Dignity, Faith

Chorus:
Wasted on keeping you down
Time now a thorny crown
Carry your burden no more
Time to, settle the score

These shells cannot endure
A storm inside so wild and pure
The frantic clock's the system shock

Verse 2:
Nature's beat, our hearts the metronomes
We write our pain in tomes
A way for us to absolve sin
Now say it with a grin
But never let it win, or let it in
Now it's too late
This virus called life
We fight to survive

Pre-chorus 2:
Kneel, Down
Bow, Down
Lose it All

Senses, Self, Pride, Restraint
Vanity, Sanity, Dignity, and Faith

Chorus

Bridge and Breakdown

Chorus x2
Track Name: Breathe
Instrumental
Track Name: Glass Half Empty
Verse 1:
This familiar taste, so sour
At this, timely hour
You're poison in my veins
It makes these efforts vain

But I, should have seen the light
And I should have known, you were right
Just pour another, Just embrace and smother

Chorus:
Behind the little lies you've sold
You can't take it back, you won't take it back
I'd rather be, dead and cold
Cause my time's almost gone
You can't take me back, you won't take me back
You won't take me back, anymore

Verse 2:
At the bottle's bottom
This life's final autumn
You're the one who knows
Where my weakness goes

I don't mind this stout
It's what life has poured out
Come on just give me another
We know there's no other way, out

Chorus

(Time's just, wasting away
And this, glass is empty)

Pre-chorus:
I think we're done here
Just so that we're clear
I've heard it all before
All those times you swore

My glass is now half gone
No time left to hang on
Sand seeps through the crack
And there's no going back

Chorus

Outro
Behind the little lies
You can't take it back, you won't take it back
I'd rather be dead and cold

Cause my time's all up
You can't take me back, you won't take me back
You won't take me back (there)
Anymore
Track Name: To Get Up Again
Verse 1:
A bed like a tomb
Seal me from inside
Protect me from doom
From the outside

Pre-chorus:
Should I stay
Die another day

Chorus:
I'm pushed down to the floor
I don't want it, I don't want it anymore
Choking on all these pills
I don't want to feel, I just want to feel
Screaming out till the end
I will not, I will not bend
Just beginning to
To get up, to get up again

Verse 2:
A place in my head
The only peace
From demons wanting
Death to cease

Chorus
Track Name: Conquer
Verse 1:
This shallow grave
The hollow side
Can't keep me safe
Fear the void

Pre-chorus 1:
And I'll bleed
And I'll scream
Until it crashes down

Chorus
Conquer your fears
They can't hold you down
They can't hold you
Conquer your hate
Or it will consume
It will consume you

Verse 2:
These words for you
Written for two
Jump from the ledge
Sink down then you'll know

Pre-chorus 2:
Know I'm failure
Know I am pain
Know I'm right, just
Know I'm anti - you

Chorus

(Fight) x 8

Bullfighting breakdown

(Fight) (Rise) x4
(Fight) x 8

Chorus x2
Track Name: Burned Out
Instrumental
Track Name: A Falling Star
Verse 1:
Waves through space and time
Distortion left behind
Days fall back to night
Perfection in demise

Verse 2:
Shot for all the stars
Lost in cosmic ocean
Fought to stay afloat
Now drowning and burning

Chorus:
Fly to the heavens
To see the disaster
I'm falling faster

Fly to the heavens
I'm burning away

(FALL)

Chorus

Outro:
Fall from the heavens
I am the disaster
I'm falling faster

Fall from the heavens
It's do or die
Track Name: Betrayal
Verse 1:
So long, to innocence
Ignorant bliss
A coveted, the coveted mess
Lies you dress (lies you dress)

Chorus:
These little lies you've told
False reality you've sold
Fragile promises broken
Nothing needs to be spoken
It's what you would have wanted
(Betrayal)

Verse 2:
You crawl, back for forgiveness
Convenient friends
You wanted back what you lost
You want to know what it had cost
I'll show you
I'll show you what you've done

Chorus

(It's what you wanted)

(I'll show you, I'll show you, I'll show you, I'll show you all)
(Hate)

(I'll Show You)

Chorus
Track Name: The End of It All
Verse 1:
The spotless stare entrances me
It shows what I'll fail to be
These rusty chains inside my skin
They pull me limb from limb
Blind my future's only sight
The thread's are pulled too tight
But now I see the world
I never made

Chorus:
Ride the spiral, endless mile
In this hell I've made
Sinking lower, growing colder
The circle's complete

Verse 2:
Behind this visage I can hide
The flaws of my own mind
Self-inflicted scars can speak
What walls cannot repeat

Lay me down to sleep I plead
When I dream it can't feed
On my misery, on my dignity

Chorus

Tempo picks up
Bridge 1:
We'll ride the spiral to the ground
We'll go out without a sound
Just let it go, just let it end
Just trust me, your only friend

Just let go, just give in
Just trust me, your only friend
Just let go, just let go, just let go,
Just
Let
Go

Chorus x2

Bridge 2:
Down and down, you will fall down x 2
Down and down, I will fall down x2

(Down we fall)

Down
Down
Down
Down
Down
I
Fall

(Screams)
Track Name: Outro - To Better Ends
Instrumental