The Musings of Balance

by Thomas Rakowitz

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Instrumental
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Verse 1: Cracks in the mirror, Remind me Of what I can be This thing I hate is framed In a lens of truth Pre-chorus: I don't know what I am But I know you You are the end of everything Chorus: I've gotta get away from you (Can't get away, can't get away from me) To change what I have become (Slip into, slip into the void) But you and I are one (I am you, you are me) And everything is gone Verse 2: Desperate scars on the wall Now shown for all Two stories, with one end No way to amend Chorus Solo
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My Kind 04:57
Verse 1: The ball and chain around myself Around this idol of you Sticks and stones will break them bones These words will never suit you The crown I wear upon my head It cuts them scares that never fade Royalty, made of lies This is all that we made Verse 2: You said that I was your type Of game that you could play You said that I was your kind Of bet you couldn't lose Verse 2b: King of, nothing For a, season Being, undone For no, reason Chorus These darkened skies light up my eyes The better to see behind your white lies Hide the truth from your sight Try to live the lie one more night Bridge: You are my kind of treason The kind that's done without reason You are my kind of torture I wonder when it's over You are my kind of mistake The one I learn for my sake You are my kind of grave Shallow and I can't be saved (And I can't be saved) Bridge 2: You are my kind of treason You are my kind of torture You are my kind of mistake You are my kind of grave You're not my kind of life You're not my kind of end You're not my source of pain You're not my end of game Chorus (I don't know if I told you) Bridge 3: You're not my kind of treason You're not my kind of torture You're not my kind of mistake You're not my kind of grave You're not my kind of life You're not my kind of end You're not my kind of pain You're not my end of game (Good Riddance)
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The Illusion 04:11
Verse 1: If the question's real Is there an answer to reveal? I push the pieces together The vain edges weather Chorus: And I see mirages haunt, my life (my life) The veiled illusion covers, my eyes (my eyes) (It's the illusion of it all) Verse 2: The crooked lines are crossed My signs point to lost I've gotta search for a reason For life's little treason (treason) Chorus (It's the illusion of hope, it's the illusion of faith, it's the illusion in all of us, IT'S THE ILLUSION OF IT ALL) Chorus Outro: Still I see mirages haunt, my life (my life) The veiled illusion covers, my eyes (my eyes)
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Frantic 04:35
Verse 1: One, two, three, four The ticking clock wants more Gotta make, gotta make a quick escape Gotta take the chance to break Away from the mistake What's the plan, is it our last stand? Are we going to make demands? Is the line drawn in bloody sand? Set yourself, stay the course Kill remorse, cut the source With a force that fears all that you are Pre-chorus 1: Rise up, off your knees Take it up, the legacy Give up, being weak Lose control of your: Senses, Self, Pride, Restraint Vanity, Sanity, Dignity, Faith Chorus: Wasted on keeping you down Time now a thorny crown Carry your burden no more Time to, settle the score These shells cannot endure A storm inside so wild and pure The frantic clock's the system shock Verse 2: Nature's beat, our hearts the metronomes We write our pain in tomes A way for us to absolve sin Now say it with a grin But never let it win, or let it in Now it's too late This virus called life We fight to survive Pre-chorus 2: Kneel, Down Bow, Down Lose it All Senses, Self, Pride, Restraint Vanity, Sanity, Dignity, and Faith Chorus Bridge and Breakdown Chorus x2
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Breathe 03:24
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Verse 1: This familiar taste, so sour At this, timely hour You're poison in my veins It makes these efforts vain But I, should have seen the light And I should have known, you were right Just pour another, Just embrace and smother Chorus: Behind the little lies you've sold You can't take it back, you won't take it back I'd rather be, dead and cold Cause my time's almost gone You can't take me back, you won't take me back You won't take me back, anymore Verse 2: At the bottle's bottom This life's final autumn You're the one who knows Where my weakness goes I don't mind this stout It's what life has poured out Come on just give me another We know there's no other way, out Chorus (Time's just, wasting away And this, glass is empty) Pre-chorus: I think we're done here Just so that we're clear I've heard it all before All those times you swore My glass is now half gone No time left to hang on Sand seeps through the crack And there's no going back Chorus Outro Behind the little lies You can't take it back, you won't take it back I'd rather be dead and cold Cause my time's all up You can't take me back, you won't take me back You won't take me back (there) Anymore
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Verse 1: A bed like a tomb Seal me from inside Protect me from doom From the outside Pre-chorus: Should I stay Die another day Chorus: I'm pushed down to the floor I don't want it, I don't want it anymore Choking on all these pills I don't want to feel, I just want to feel Screaming out till the end I will not, I will not bend Just beginning to To get up, to get up again Verse 2: A place in my head The only peace From demons wanting Death to cease Chorus
9.
Conquer 07:32
Verse 1: This shallow grave The hollow side Can't keep me safe Fear the void Pre-chorus 1: And I'll bleed And I'll scream Until it crashes down Chorus Conquer your fears They can't hold you down They can't hold you Conquer your hate Or it will consume It will consume you Verse 2: These words for you Written for two Jump from the ledge Sink down then you'll know Pre-chorus 2: Know I'm failure Know I am pain Know I'm right, just Know I'm anti - you Chorus (Fight) x 8 Bullfighting breakdown (Fight) (Rise) x4 (Fight) x 8 Chorus x2
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Burned Out 04:52
Instrumental
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Verse 1: Waves through space and time Distortion left behind Days fall back to night Perfection in demise Verse 2: Shot for all the stars Lost in cosmic ocean Fought to stay afloat Now drowning and burning Chorus: Fly to the heavens To see the disaster I'm falling faster Fly to the heavens I'm burning away (FALL) Chorus Outro: Fall from the heavens I am the disaster I'm falling faster Fall from the heavens It's do or die
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Betrayal 05:26
Verse 1: So long, to innocence Ignorant bliss A coveted, the coveted mess Lies you dress (lies you dress) Chorus: These little lies you've told False reality you've sold Fragile promises broken Nothing needs to be spoken It's what you would have wanted (Betrayal) Verse 2: You crawl, back for forgiveness Convenient friends You wanted back what you lost You want to know what it had cost I'll show you I'll show you what you've done Chorus (It's what you wanted) (I'll show you, I'll show you, I'll show you, I'll show you all) (Hate) (I'll Show You) Chorus
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Verse 1: The spotless stare entrances me It shows what I'll fail to be These rusty chains inside my skin They pull me limb from limb Blind my future's only sight The thread's are pulled too tight But now I see the world I never made Chorus: Ride the spiral, endless mile In this hell I've made Sinking lower, growing colder The circle's complete Verse 2: Behind this visage I can hide The flaws of my own mind Self-inflicted scars can speak What walls cannot repeat Lay me down to sleep I plead When I dream it can't feed On my misery, on my dignity Chorus Tempo picks up Bridge 1: We'll ride the spiral to the ground We'll go out without a sound Just let it go, just let it end Just trust me, your only friend Just let go, just give in Just trust me, your only friend Just let go, just let go, just let go, Just Let Go Chorus x2 Bridge 2: Down and down, you will fall down x 2 Down and down, I will fall down x2 (Down we fall) Down Down Down Down Down I Fall (Screams)
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Instrumental

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The culmination of years of work, this album is the cathartic solo release by Thomas Rakowitz. Ranging from hard rock, to metal, to ambient soundscapes, this album seeks to give insight to his mind while asking the listener what is inside of theirs. This is a personal record, and may feature content that may be deemed "unsettling" towards some listeners. It was important, however, to be as honest as possible.

So here it is, in its complete and flawed form: "The Musings of Balance"

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released March 16, 2016

Guitars, Bass, Vocals, Drum Programming, Producing, Mixing, Mastering/Post-Mixing: Thomas Rakowitz

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Thomas Rakowitz San Antonio, Texas

Thomas Rakowitz, hailing from Texas, is a songwriter and composer that creates aural pleasure for himself and others. While he generally stays in the hard rock and metal frame of mind, Thomas isn't afraid to bring his fretwork and talent to other genres and stylings. His pieces take cues from many influences, but each still has his signature mark on them. ... more

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