Ghosts of Myself

by Thomas Rakowitz



This is a collection of songs that I feel couldn't fit into my full length project entitled, "The Musings of Balance." As a set, however, they are a good representation of what is to come. Two of the tracks are actually from as far back as 2010.

This is a great sampling of what I was, what I am, and the future of my music. I hope you'll enjoy this, and that it'll help you as the songs have helped me.


released October 11, 2014

Almost everything (recording, mixing, mastering): Thomas Rakowitz
Some writer credit to Daniel Bas for some melodic lines in "The Consuming Flame"
My family and friends, the driving forces.


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Thomas Rakowitz San Antonio, Texas

Thomas Rakowitz, hailing from Texas, is a songwriter and composer that creates aural pleasure for himself and others. While he generally stays in the hard rock and metal frame of mind, Thomas isn't afraid to bring his fretwork and talent to other genres and stylings. His pieces take cues from many influences, but each still has his signature mark on them. ... more

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Track Name: Ghosts of Myself
Entombed from above
With scream of mute love
Whispered hate so loud
Preach to the choir's crowd

Every piece so free, but never complete
No puzzle to solve, no past to resolve

You will not take me, no you won't take me
Just let me be free

Chorus: These memories that weigh me down
Inside my mind I'll not drown
Tear out the hooks in my heart
Unbounded for a new start

Graves with my name on the stone
They say that this soul's a loan
To a debt that can't be paid
But that will be claimed

This writing on the wall, can't be the tell all
I can't give in, I won't let it win


Break- Join the stones

Track Name: The Consuming Flame
Tongues whiplash at our backs
Time marked by the whip cracks
A price to pay with interest
Gluttons for the tempest

Stars that have seen bloodshed
Ransack the lost and the dead
Blank check wars to fight
Turning out our own light

We till the consuming fire, the burning desire
the human empire, a force to inspire
So much hate and ire, damning all but the liar
Who sold us out to our hells.

We raise it higher and higher, the vermillion spire
flags all up for hire, to the wealthiest buyer
We walk the thin wire, now we're all satire
Can't even save ourselves.

We watch it wash away
For we're not here to stay
The fire comes crashing down
The sound's will drown
Our empty words to plea
With seas of apathy

The price of progress rose
But why no one knows
Pillars pride their existence
But fall with insistence

Her bleeding heart's denial
A world now so vile
Children play with the noose
How poorly we did choose



Our empty words to plea
Our empty words to plea
Our empty words to bleed
To fill the sea of apathy

Track Name: Lost In My Mind
Another night I've lost, the attraction's cost
Game's I've never played, In mazes I never made
Looks used to deceive, Frail masks to believe
White lies to repeat, a package wrapped so neat

They say I'm alive, and I will survive
Misheard what they said, feels like I'm better off dead
Inside comatose, cured by the right dose
Urge to feel something, but numb the hurting

Lost inside my mind
I try to seek and find
Reaching for a sign
I'll be fine
Feeling it converge
Imitations emerge
I want to save myself this curse

This medicated high, just time that I buy
It's just got to give, remedy to live
This purgatory creeps, while the poison seeps
Keeping it inside, countless times I've lied

Take all that I own, persuasion sown
Promise me heaven, norepenephrine
The chemicals stop, with hope's last little drop
The walls never cease, to trap me and peace


Track Name: Whispered Nightmares
Every night I'm plagued, lost count times I've begged
Just to rest in peace, without your disease

I still hear
Your voice is near
Those words empty hollow
Take the pill you swallow

I'm still restless at heart, wired to repeat the part
Could I make you whole, with what you stole?
I gave myself, you took all of me
Trust in you was free, but when I sleep


When will I wake up (from these nightmares)


I still hear your voice
But I've made my choice
I've got to forget you
Because you forgot me

You forgot me x2
Track Name: Over the Event Horizons

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